





一次又一次,自己觉得自己领悟了“珍惜”这两个字….这次外公病重了,我才发现,我又浪费了好多时间.
大头走后,自认自己已经学会珍惜,珍惜身旁的每个人….
但,我忘记了珍惜自己。
一直到今天,外公病重,吵着要离开这个世界…我才开始想了。在这世界上,我要留下什么,我要带走什么?…我要大家记得我的什么…
我想要什么?我要成功….
我要怎样成功?虽然我现在是final year了,但我还是说不知道….
开始觉得压力了,是想太多吗?
常常想,我到底要几岁结婚?又想讲我想太多了。
我算算看,如果我30岁要结婚,就代表我28岁要存钱搞世纪婚礼,27岁开始要供屋子,也就是说我最迟25岁必须找到稳定的工作开始存钱,而残酷的是,我23岁毕业,今年22,
至今还没想到要到哪一行发展或者发展哪一行
至今还没想到要到哪里发展还是发展哪里。
如果,我23岁那年进入一个不适合我的行业,那么那不会是我的事业,只会是我的工作….
我只有两年的时间找到我的稳定“事业”
不然27岁存不够钱买屋子….那我如果借很多钱,就必须从27岁供屋子供到57岁:不然就用2+1 贷款,我供20年,孩子供十年。
人生,兜兜转转,我要什么?
我必须很快找到答案。
17th Aug..
I 'm getting to hate this date...
it's owez blue...down...and memories come pouring....
Big head...
can you feel us that day?
the day where we were having fun at McD?
where everyone is putting our smile on our face..
where everyone is as normal as usual..
where everyone as gao diao as usual..
where we are still the noisiest among the crowd..
The day was as usual if u are still here...
if u r till here..
i think we'll celebrate ur birthday in such way too ba..
a simple dinner at some where..
seeing how Suang say she dun wanna eat bt ending up still eat...
seeing how I'm gao diao till everyone is staring at us..
seeing how Vivian is telling stories..
seeing how good HuiYee in controlling her diet...
seeing how xiao ge zhi is being bullied.. (bt he was having test that day, so nobody really kacau him..)
seeing Ah Yao's sha xiao, so xin fu and sweet v his gf...
seeing MingCher's, ur best partner of every birthday party,listen to his burp, his cold jokes..
seeing Naiba is as quiet as usual compared to the others, bt can oso talk cold joke...
Not forgetting Chong Sing..the one who is owez v us no matter who's birthday celebration..d one owez on phone..that night..he was skyping v us v his big big naked tummy and his stupid act...
And your mum called up..telling us that they are all fine...
i wonder...can you see or feel all this?
if you were still with us...
i guess,
you will be keep asking Suang to stop eating...
i guess,
you will only shake head on my noisiness..
i guess,
you will listen quietly to Vivian's story and wil ask que ba..
i guess..
you will keep persuading Hui yee to eat and tell her its not fattening..
i guess..
you will be d one who bully xiao ge zhi d most, dun even let him do his test..
i guess.. you will be the one who wishes Ah Yao the most for being such sweet.. i guess..
you will stay far away from Ming Cher, to avoid creams on your face..since it's your birthday, you'll have direct contact with the cake..hmm..i wonder..is the cake big enough for your face of the large head?